2+2=5

stop talking to me. i am reading Voltaire.

negi — Sat, 06 Sep 2008 09:34:59 +0000

At fitful moments in our pain-racked life

the hand of pleasure wipes away our tears

but pleasure passes like a fleeting shade

and leaves a legacy of pain and loss

the past for us is but a fond regret

the present grim, unless the future’s clear

If thought must end in darkness of the tomb

all will be well one day—–so runs our hope

All NOW is well, is but an idle dream

The wise deceive me: God alone is right,

With lowly sighing, subject in my pain

I do not fling myself against Providence

Once did i sing, in less lugubrious tone

the sunny ways of pleasure’s genial rule

The times have changed, and, taught by growing age

and sharing of the frailty of mankind

seeking a light amid the deepening gloom

I can but suffer, and will not repine.

—–Poem on the Lisbon Disaster

by Voltaire.

I don’t expect you to like this poem as much as I do, just know that it has a huge impact on me.

Well stop talking to me, cos you will not like what i say.

I do not wanna discuss politics, cos you listen but do not hear me. Shall we talk about Nov 4th election? Cos i really want to tell you i was not convinced by Palin’s speech, who has given Americans many reasons not to vote for Obama but Palin, could you give me ONE reason why one should vote for YOU? Nonetheless i think McCain is gonna win, (oh dear no!) and Barrack what did your 300 advisers have against Hillary? Why Biden? How do you achieve the change you so badly crave for with Biden? You know I am with you, we are anti-war, but reading terrorists their rights?

You might say, this is none of my business. You are probably right.

so stop talking to me.

For I really have nothing to say to you.

Wait and hope. Someday u will wake up.

negi — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 07:01:40 +0000

Thank you for all your well wishes!!

negi — Sun, 17 Aug 2008 13:43:51 +0000

August 13th

negi — Wed, 13 Aug 2008 19:25:38 +0000

滝野川の生活

negi — Mon, 04 Aug 2008 16:15:54 +0000

古い引き出しの中の色あせた写真、笑顔だけを残してくれた感謝したい日々、無駄なことなど一つもなかった時間、歩くたびに思い出になった風景、あなたも時には取り出して見ているのだろうか、私と似ていた姿は変わりないのだろうか、思いの果てにはまだ私が生きているのだろうか、気になっても耐えてもみせるよ、必死に求めても無理に時を戻しても、昔私たちの姿ではないから。

長い夜が明ければ朝が来て、雨が降った後には花が育ち、季節が戻ってくるように、月も星に会うように、何もかも自分の居場所を見つけるのだろう。－－SSK.

Smile.

negi — Sun, 27 Jul 2008 05:34:29 +0000

Smile though your heart is aching

smile even though it’s breaking

when there are clouds in the sky you’ll get by

if you smile through your fear and sorrow

smile and maybe tomorrow

you’ll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness

hide every trace of sadness

although a tear may be ever so near

that’s the time you must keep on trying

smile, what’s the use of crying?

You’ll find that life is still worthwhile

if you just smile.

最近心情差透了老想哭。也許考試吧。明天就考完了。咬緊牙根拼下去。

運命

negi — Sat, 26 Jul 2008 08:00:58 +0000

あなたに夢中になってるわ！

negi — Sat, 26 Jul 2008 04:45:19 +0000

i love him!!!!!

negi — Sun, 20 Jul 2008 12:03:45 +0000

THIS SONG BREAKS ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!This is my song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sung Si Kyung. Your voice is the one playing in the background during this whole exam period.

Would you marry me?

I wear black rim specs too!! And mine is bigger!!

Alright alright..im just kiddin’ cos Kim Ja Young will kill me

…ok ja young he will marry you, dun you worry!!!

Thank you enfee, enyi, eunice for translating.

Such a sad sad sad song.

Reveries of the solitary walker.

negi — Thu, 17 Jul 2008 08:16:01 +0000

Rousseau.

You have given me immense hope again.

I read you and I am alive again.

“Everything is finished for me on earth. People can no longer do good or evil to me here. I have nothing more to hope for or to fear in this world; and here I am, tranquil at the bottom of the abyss, a poor unfortunate mortal, but unperturbed, like God himself”.

Certainly these are words of profound pain and intense resignation, yet at the same time, one feels a tremendous sense of peace that gnaws incessantly at one’s heart.

OH NO NO NO. How could I ever return to being who I used to be? I don’t think I even like her anymore. Sorry Sharon, I no longer feel for you the same way I did. I might even have come to despise you, even if it is only a tinge, but I am on the edge, and I fear I will not like what I see, should I see you in this new light. Please forgive me, although I strongly insist that I do not need to apologise for the way I want to live the rest of my life, wretched as it might be, it is still mine to behold. There is no turning back. You will be murdering my soul if you force me to.

And I will hate you, for a very long time.

But your friends. That’s another story altogether.

YOu almost missed your EXAM today if Hyelin has not called and screamed into the earpiece “SHAROOOOOOON

WHERE ARE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!”

PAK HYELIN my dearest korean classmate:I LOVE YOU

YOU TOTALLY SAVED MY LIFE.

Ok your whole academic record would have been ruined if you had stupidly missed this paper STOP GETTING LOST IN YOUR BOOKS I know you are very proud of your mugging but could you please take note of the time too??????

So anyway, 3 more essays, 4 more papers to go.

Goodluck you stupid stupid stupid STUPID GAL.

AND SHUT UP. As Carlos told you to. Are you happy now Carlos?

Still I wanna thank you for all the consoling messages. I am still hurt, angry, disappointed, lost faith..whatever..It is useless wasting one more second on it anymore.

Case not closed but my heart is shut.

YOU!!! I hope you know how much grief you are causing my family. I will never ever understand why. How do you sleep at night?