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Read your fate.

“What is a course of history or philosophy, or poetry, no matter how well selected, or the best society, or the most admirable routine of life,

compared with the discipline of looking always at what is to be seen?

Will you be a reader, a student merely, or a seer?

Read your fate,

see what is before you,

and walk on into futurity”.

–Thoreau

un sinistre pressentiment

“C’était l’heure

où le chagrin s’ouvre quelque part,

comme un pétunia,

pour l’insomnie”

–Léon-Paul Fargue

Je ne le désire plus…Elle n’a point de l’âme et son peuple est moche et ignorant.

Je ne veux plus l’agent la renommée ni ta reconnaissance. Je vous demande juste simplement de me donner la tranquillité  de l’esprit. Ne pénétrez jamais s’il vous plaît dans l’ intimité de moi.

J’écris pour les gens généreux qui aiment la vie, qui ont un coeur ouvert aux idées neuves, et qui m’aiment. Pas pour que vous pouvez discuter ou bavader sur ma vie. C’est dégueulasse. Désolée mais je ne le supporte PAS DU TOUT.

Chacun son goût.

Vivez votre propre vie s’il vous plaît.

NE OUBLIE PAS QUE CHACUN MÉRITE D’ÊTRE RESPECTÉ.

La courtoisie de base. C’est tout.

le spleen

Il pleure dans mon coeur, comme il pleut sur la ville

Quelle est cette langueur, qui pénètre mon coeur?

Ô bruit doux de la pluie, par terre et sur les toits

Pour un coeur qui s’ennuie, Ô le chant de la pluie!

Il pleure sans raison, dans ce coeur qui s’écoeure

Quoi! nulle trahison? Ce deuil est sans raison.

C’est bien la pire peine de ne savoir pourquoi

sans amour et sans haine, mon coeur a tant de peine.

—Paul Verlaine.

DANCE! Dance my blues away.

SING! SING OUT PROUD!!!!

I am singing aloud(I AM SCREAMIN’) this very moment in Keiko’s room to DEAR WOMAN!!

“WELCOME YOOKOSOOO NIHON E ~~~KIMIGA IMA KOKONI IRU KOTO

TOBIKIRI NO UNMEI NI~~KOKORO KARA ARIGATOOOOOOO~~~~”

(while Keiko is attempting to sew hahahaha well I shouldn’t be laughing at her cos she cooked me very yummy wonton soup tonight!!!　ちょうおいしかったわ！！ ありがとう！！)

TRISTESSE! NO you can never drown me again.

You can’t get me down.

Jamais.

Cos I know how to fix myself now.

LIBERATION

This is the beauty of adulthood.

乗り越えられるはず！

ALLEZ COURAGE!!!!

 

 

PS. Amilus drew this portrait of me in Annecy..merci beaucoup, tu es geniale!!

 

Reveries of the solitary walker.

Rousseau.

You have given me immense hope again.

I read you and I am alive again.

“Everything is finished for me on earth. People can no longer do good or evil to me here. I have nothing more to hope for or to fear in this world; and here I am, tranquil at the bottom of the abyss, a poor unfortunate mortal, but unperturbed, like God himself”.

Certainly these are words of profound pain and intense resignation, yet at the same time, one feels a tremendous sense of peace that gnaws incessantly at one’s heart.

OH NO NO NO. How could I ever return to being who I used to be? I don’t think I even like her anymore. Sorry Sharon, I no longer feel for you the same way I did. I might even have come to despise you, even if it is only a tinge, but I am on the edge, and I fear I will not like what I see, should I see you in this new light. Please forgive me, although I strongly insist that I do not need to apologise for the way I want to live the rest of my life, wretched as it might be, it is still mine to behold. There is no turning back. You will be murdering my soul if you force me to.

And I will hate you, for a very long time.

But your friends. That’s another story altogether.

YOu almost missed your EXAM today if Hyelin has not called and screamed into the earpiece “SHAROOOOOOON

WHERE ARE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!”

PAK HYELIN my dearest korean classmate:I LOVE YOU

YOU TOTALLY SAVED MY LIFE.

Ok your whole academic record would have been ruined if you had stupidly missed this paper STOP GETTING LOST IN YOUR BOOKS I know you are very proud of your mugging but could you please take note of the time too??????

So anyway, 3 more essays, 4 more papers to go.

Goodluck you stupid stupid stupid STUPID GAL.

AND SHUT UP. As Carlos told you to. Are you happy now Carlos?

Still I wanna thank you for all the consoling messages. I am still hurt, angry, disappointed, lost faith..whatever..It is useless wasting one more second on it anymore.

Case not closed but my heart is shut.

YOU!!! I hope you know how much grief you are causing my family. I will never ever understand why. How do you sleep at night?

obama’s nomination speech

“….Change is a foreign policy that doesn’t begin and end with a war that should’ve never been authorized and never been waged. I won’t stand here and pretend that there are many good options left in Iraq, but what’s not an option is leaving our troops in that country for the next hundred years – especially at a time when our military is overstretched, our nation is isolated, and nearly every other threat to America is being ignored.

We must be as careful getting out of Iraq as we were careless getting in – but start leaving we must. It’s time for Iraqis to take responsibility for their future. It’s time to rebuild our military and give our veterans the care they need and the benefits they deserve when they come home. It’s time to refocus our efforts on al Qaeda’s leadership and Afghanistan, and rally the world against the common threats of the 21st century – terrorism and nuclear weapons; climate change and poverty; genocide and disease. That’s what change is.

Change is realizing that meeting today’s threats requires not just our firepower, but the power of our diplomacy – tough, direct diplomacy where the President of the United States isn’t afraid to let any petty dictator know where America stands and what we stand for. We must once again have the courage and conviction to lead the free world. That is the legacy of Roosevelt, and Truman, and Kennedy. That’s what the American people want. That’s what change is.

…..America, this is our moment. This is our time. Our time to turn the page on the policies of the past. Our time to bring new energy and new ideas to the challenges we face. Our time to offer a new direction for the country we love.

The journey will be difficult. The road will be long. I face this challenge with profound humility, and knowledge of my own limitations. But I also face it with limitless faith in the capacity of the American people. Because if we are willing to work for it, and fight for it, and believe in it, then I am absolutely certain that generations from now, we will be able to look back and tell our children that this was the moment when we began to provide care for the sick and good jobs to the jobless; this was the moment when the rise of the oceans began to slow and our planet began to heal; this was the moment when we ended a war and secured our nation and restored our image as the last, best hope on Earth. This was the moment – this was the time – when we came together to remake this great nation so that it may always reflect our very best selves, and our highest ideals.

Thank you, God Bless you, and may God Bless the United States of America.”

Dominic you are right, it did send patriotic shivers down my spine.

Ma vie à Paris.

Route à sciences Po.

Mes amies japonaises dans la rue de Paris.

..

Les femmes dans le train. De Place D´Italie à St Germain des Près.

…

La classe commence à dix heures jusqu´à six heures tous les jours.

Ma compagne Misa.

And why should there not be a European group which could give a sense of enlarged patriotism and common citizenship to the distracted peoples of this turbulent and mighty continent? And why should it not take its rightful place with other great grouplings and help to shape the onward destinies of men? In order that this should be accomplished there must be an act of faith in which millions of families speaking many languages must consciously take part.

Therefore i say to you :

Let Europe arise!

—the tragedy of europe

Sir Winston Churchill Zurich Speech 19th sept 1946

我走我的路。你呢？

Reading Daniel Bell.

Those who do not choose their own plans of life, says John Stuart Mill are no better than apes..
” The human facilities of perception, judgement, discriminative feeling, mental activity, and even moral preference, are only exercised only in making a choice..He who lets the world, or his own portion of it, choose his plan of life for him, has no need of any other faculty than the ape-like one of imitation…”
—On Liberty (Three Essays)

How much time do we spend upgrading ourselves? Or do I spend most of the time wondering what life has in store for my otherwise mundane existence?

Here’s another inspiration from Michael Walzer’s book Thick and Thin.

“Jean- Paul Sartre’s account of the self-creation of the intellectual. The intellectual achieves his guardianship by constantly critisizing and radicalizing (himself) “

Live

Learn

Laugh.

Education Education Education.

What more could I say?

読書の秋.

My favourite season.
Autumn leaves.

Its subtle beauty.

The meloncholia of autumn drifts in the air that i breathe.

As i walk the walk, with a silly grin on my face, i greet the red and gold leaves with an enthusiam long forgotten.

After the midterm exams, I am so looking forward to a walk down 明治神宮外苑。With my hegemon and our books. Cos nothing, absolutely nothing, beats reading a good book together with someone you connect with.

Merci, mon Dieu.

Il est gentil, non?

HUA REN HUA YU

KNOWLEDGE, unlike life, is INFINITE.

My mind is all swarmed with Spanish, Japanese and English that i´m beginning to speak Mandarin like a toddler. Have been responsible for translating between my Taiwanese and European friends..can i just say that it is not as easy as i thought. Especially when both sides are debating about politics. I have to be careful NOT to translate the sarcasm, insinuation and innuendos to avoid aggravating the already intense arguments.  

But when one chinese gal asked my jewish classmate if he hates Hitler…..I FLED from the scene. HELP.

Can´t wait to blog in Mandarin again..can only do that when i´m back on my beloved laptop.

Jiang hua yu.

Yin wei wo men shi hua ren.