Photo credit : Jeff Chang for M Lifestyle Magazine.
(Get a copy of December issue now)
It is fine to be underestimated and misunderstood. Emerge to their surprise.
I will persevere. Swiftly, relentlessly and without compromise.
It is indeed lonely at the top.
This year we did not celebrate our 2nd Anniversary with balloons, cakes, and confetti. In fact we did not even throw a party. Not even a small, cosy, quiet cake-cutting in the office. I found it a little disappointing, but that’s just me being emotional, and I shall not dwell any deeper.
Instead I feted this special occasion with a new conviction : that things have gotta change in the way we work and communicate with one another.
The irony is: I used to pride myself in cruising through my 6 years abroad in Paris, Lyon, Salamanca and Tokyo, even though along the way I struggled to overcome all the different layers of cultural and language nuances. I was in foreign lands, speaking in Japanese, French and even Spanish and I got by, unscarred, and a little triumphant!
Here, back in my home for barely 3 years and 8 months, I faced more fights and misunderstandings than all my years overseas combined, despite all of us speaking a common tongue.
It is sad, undoubtedly. And it causes me to continue to miss my previous life in the cities I love. This conflict humbled me. I know I have to rise up to the occasion and set it right for myself.
Don’t finger point at anyone else. Point at yourself.
styleXstyle is a business, not a personal blog. I have to make tough, unpopular decisions all the time. If it’s all self-indulgent fun and games, then I don’t need to be here do I ?
Instant gratification? Not good enough for me. I strongly believe you reap what you sow.
There is no short cut. There is no easy way. There’s only hard solid work.
“Sail forth! For the deep waters only!
And we will risk the ship, ourselves, and all”
–my one and only Walt Whitman I memorize your words to death.
Filed under Life, love, work
I am angry.
And I should not be. No one should be so angry. At least not for too long.
Nothing should be so difficult to navigate and if it is you are obviously not enjoying yourself.
When I wanted to pursue an education overseas you thought I was fleeing.
When I wanted to do my part for the country you thought I was showing off.
When I wanted to love you thought I was in denial.
When I wanted to quit you thought it was PTSD.
And now I create but you think I’m too fast.
Whatever I wanted to…you always thought otherwise.
Hélas. Allow me, even just for a moment, to be human and to be angry.
Let me be candid for just a minute and ask that perhaps you should try catching up?
I told myself to remember the sunrise at Macchu Picchu and the promise I said out loud to the vastness:
Live the life I have imagined!
Be contented with less.
I am enough.
Be unwavering but kind.
Like a mountain.
Filed under Life, Thots, trance
So honoured to be able to collaborate with Tangs for this socially responsible campaign #ShopForGood, where a $0.50 donation will be made to Community Chest for every receipt generated between 2 October to 2 November.
As a media figure and lead of http://www.styleXstyle.com, I have always wanted to redefine our commitment.
styleXstyle is not just about OOTDs, LOTDs, or any other selfies-of-the-day. Fashion should not only be about yourself. I would like to take this initiative to truly empower the new generation of young and affluent fashion community on styleXstyle to make more informed shopping decisions, and to use their social currency to reach out to a greater audience and to do good.
Other partners will be inspired to step forward too and one day… it will be a collective effort to give back to society.
See you later at the launch party at Tangs Orchard from 3-5pm.
Let’s shop for good.
My last entry was a good half a year ago. Told myself i need to discipline myself to pen down my thoughts more often. It’s healthier. Pent up emotions are too dramatic for my own good now.
I spent my 39th birthday thinking about the way I have been living each day. How “expectations” have been one of the source of my troubles. I have come to accept that we all come from such diverse backgrounds with different capabilities, it is stupid, really, if you expect to have your expectations met. Ha even that last line sounds silly.
Oh well, we learn.
Been watching Orange Is The New Black lately, and in the episode “I Am Not Ready”, Yoga Jones said this to Piper, and it really hits me.
“Do you know what a mandala is? The Tibetan monks make them out of dyed sand laid out into big, beautiful designs. And when they’re done – after days or weeks of work – they wipe it all away.
Try to look at your experience here as a mandala. Work hard to make something as meaningful and beautiful as you can and when you’re done, pack it in and know it was all temporary.
You have to remember that. It’s all temporary.”
This is why I love to indulge myself in a good story. It sets me right back on track.
Make the best out of all situations. While I am at it, make it spectacular. And then be ready to part with all of it when the time comes. Move on and not look back.
It is all indeed, temporary.